7:10 p.m. - 2008-09-07
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i just sniffed some coke for the first time in a lonnnng time. i guess i was feeling a little depressed and tired, mostly tired, i need to fix my sleeping habbit of going to bed at 4am and waking up at 2pm, and i need to be more active, going to the gym and all that crap, i need to get out more. i remember the last time i did it was last year at the Taiwan Festival in September, and before that was at the White Stripes concert in April.

such peculiar thing, when you're on it you dont understand why everything depresses you, when it wears off you dont understand how, for such a brief moment, you could possibly feel such happiness in your heart.

i miss Loic. i wish he was here with me at this very moment, not because im high, but he makes me like who i am.


8:56pm -

id much rather to be talking to someone right now than writing on my journal, coke is wearing off very fast and i only have very little left. paul just came home so i had to be extremely causious, which sucks more, i want to sing, i want to yell, i want to dance til i drop.


9:27pm -

i finished it all, all i had was a quarter of a gram, and i didn't feel extremely high like i did with Loic before. soon i'll feel sad and paranoid but i have a movie date with jess and mon in half an hr, perfect ending to this little sunday treat, it's good to have close friends around while the shit comes down. but now let me enjoy it while it still lasts.

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